我要去旅行呀

雖然唔係好耐之前去咗，但基本上都係去湊仔，都不算是旅行嘛，所以感覺上好似好耐好耐無去過旅行了。

我要去真的旅行呀！

但係，基本上，短期內都唔會發生啦。嗚嗚...

很窮，又無人睇住小J…

Conference

做咗好幾年，第一次有得出 conference. 上一次類似既經驗係剛轉黎呢間公司無耐，俾我去咗一次 software training course.

不過真係唔係講笑，要去 conference 真係要通過重重難關先可以去，第一，要經理批。不過呢個唔難，經理係好人，加上個 conference 真係同做既嘢有關，經理看了看就批了。

難的一關是要 business line leader 批，除了真正的動機（去學嘢）之外，要堆砌一Ｄ對公司有經濟效益的原因，雖然唔係全然老作，嗰Ｄ嘢例如 networking with potential client 諸如類此的厄鬼原因，雖然真係會有機會發生，但以我咁自我封閉既性格，係唔會發生囉。

好慘架，要 fill 埋張不知所謂既 form to calculate how much the company loses in monetary terms due to the fact that I’m losing two days of work + the cost of the conference. Since the amount is over $1000 (which really doesn’t take much to exceed, 個 conference ＋tax 都超過$500），張 approval form 寫明如果我一年之內自願離職，咁我要賠番哂Ｄ錢俾公司囉。超 cheap, 佢計我每日既人工唔係用我真正既薪水去計，係用佢哋 charge client 個 rate 去計。我明白點解，因為咁先係計到公司既 '損失', 但咁計就死啦，點可能唔超過 $1000. 所以除非我想賠＄＄，otherwise, 我呢一年內都唔會轉工。(actually I’m no longer looking recently, getting tired of it… mainly waiting for them to lay me off)公司真是超 cheap, mult-billion, international 個屁，區區千多元都要同我少少員工計。好彩個 cost  唔過千五咋（因為好好經理俾我 charge 其中一日落佢個 project 度），otherwise, 仲要一個再大粒的簽 approval.

Anyway, after a few other conditions, with the help of my current manager’s (which is going to expire in two weeks since my proper, but interim manager is coming back from sick leave soon) help, I got the approval.

Nice to get out there. 聽聽書，學下少少嘢。話學到好多嘢又唔係，d seminar 講嗰Ｄ嘢都係好 high level 既 concept, 唔到肉，不過如果講得太深我又唔明既啫。

有Ｄseminar 很不錯，有Ｄ就很 disappointing. 有幾個我勁恰眼訓，尤其是 lunch 後的一個，真係釣哂魚。

不過去 conference 好攰，雖然全日只係坐喺度，但返到屋企都超攰。可能因為我平時返工唔會成日都咁集中精神，反而 conference 嗰時會。

最不幸的時在 lunch time 時俾一個舊同事發現咗我，一齊坐，我基本上只想做隠形人，minding my own business, eat in silence, eat in peace. 但 end up 要同佢 small talk, 佢去 conference 既目的就真係 networking, 於是又自我 introduce 俾全枱其他既 strangers, 咁我又迫住要 introduce myself and talked to these strangers. 我好攰，根本就無出過我既綿力去製造話題，佢哋有人直接問我嘢我咪答吓囉，otherwise, 自然會有其他人講嘢。I really don’t care. 所以話呢，我唔係 manager 既人才，我唔鐘意 social, 我亦都唔恨做 manager, 因為做 manager 要出去搵生意，我唔鐘意。I am happy where I am. (This kinda related to a frd who seems to b having a bit of career crisis right now but that will wait till another post.)

出 conference 仲有一個好處，就係我今個星期公司無乜嘢做，我出咗兩日，今日返黎，半日已經做好哂手頭上有既嘢，聽日都唔知點算，如果冇出到去，今個星期真的會死得很慘。

Jealousy

Apparently, I’m jealous of someone else sleeping to the point that I can’t fall asleep myself.

我通常都是一攤落床就瞬間睡死了的那個。很多時是詹占仍在打機工作我已經睡死了。But at the odd times when 詹占 比我早睡死的話，很多時我就會難以入睡。

詹占就話我係太妒忌佢比我早瞓，所以成個人 hyped up 到瞓唔著。

真的是這麼重妒忌心嗎？

Why?

小Ｊ最新一期的用語就是 "Why?"

超煩耶。

乜鬼嘢都問 why, 至至至 trivial 的都問：

出門口喇，著褸。
Why?
出面凍囉。
Why?
凍親會冷親會病架嘛，病咗咪好辛苦囉。
Why?

夠鐘瞓覺喇。
Why?
因為而家八點鐘，八點鐘就係夠鐘要瞓覺囉。
Why is it 8 o’clock?
八點咪八點囉，無得解架喎。你食完飯，天黑嘞，跟住你玩咗一陣，咁而家咪八點囉。
Why?

起身喇，要換片喇。
Why?
Why乜呀，朝朝起身都要換架啦. 你又唔去厠所屙，你識去厠所屙咪唔駛換片囉。

食飯中
（指住詹占）Why are you not eating more?
Because I am full (ate a whole plate already).
（我飲水）
Why are you drinking water?
因為我口渴囉，口渴就要飲水囉。
Why are you not drinking milk?
因為我想飲水，唔想飲奶。
Why?

落樓梯慢慢落，小心Ｄ。
Why?
因為會碌落去，跌死你，痛死你。
Why?

雖然人家咁好奇咁鐘意問係好事，但我其實都唔知佢係咪真係問，定係隨口乜都 why, 雖然我都盡量答佢，但有Ｄ嘢都唔知點答，例如點解木係啡色，咁人哋本身係啡色囉，無得解架喎。我都盡量有耐性咁努力答佢，但我本人既耐性真係好有限，有幾次我就答返佢，"Why咩why 呀，乜都why? 咁呢樣嘢係咁架嘛，冇得解架喎。" 我用既語氣唔係好重，都係笑笑口咁話Why咩why 呀咁，希望唔會造成什麼童年陰影，hahahaha…

有時唔係唔想解，但解咗都唔知佢聽唔聽得明。同埋我以為呢個 why why why stage, 係大約入咗幼稚園既年齡先會發生...

唔係講笑，真係有Ｄ煩。