Terrible Dream

Dreamt that it was Sat, 詹占為咗唔去星期一既一個 conference, 佢叫咗一間醫院星期日幫佢安樂死．

我喺夢中喊哂咁話你明明應承 that we’d grow old together, 而家咁快就死算係點？如果係病死或者俾車車死我都可以明白，但無啦啦自己選擇死，明顯係唔守諾言．然後我又 beg 佢話如果你唔鐘意份工，咁唔好做囉，留喺屋企我養你．但佢死意已決，唔會改變．

咁我就話不如佢叫間醫院改期啦，星期一凌晨先死啦，唔好星期日死，詹占話無得改；我問咁星期日幾點鐘，佢又話唔知，anytime on Sunday. 咁我哋即係剩番半日度．

跟住個夢一閃，已經係星期日，我一個人返咗去類似屋企既地方，詹占既 gay brother n his partner were there (they don’t exist in real life). They bought me some indian food, 話係詹占交帶落叫佢哋照顧我．佢哋食得好滋味，我心入面知道, it could be any time now, 我仲點有胃口食得落．

跟住個夢就喺好傷心好傷心之下完咗．

醒番，明知係個夢，但傷心既感覺持續，話咗個夢俾詹占聽，佢話我傻仔，明明醒番都仲咁傷心，我都覺得自己好白痴，但就係好傷心．

ｄ咁既夢好可怕，千祈唔好再發．>_<